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cheryl francisca 23 nov 88’ <3 ly, God, family, thesexies, asher my keys, singing yea!

Sunday, November 21, 2004, Sunday, November 21, 2004

It was late at night when a whole bunch of fans came gathering together and making the noisest noise of all time at the airport. singing, talking, screaming, yodelling, whatever that one can ever think of.. and why? just to welcome our very beloved friend Michael Feng back from his 2 yr quest in Aussie land.

Hector and his video-ing, urgh and the whole time i was being bullied grr..hahah. then the wait finally ended *phew* and the ever so radiant Michael Feng walked out of the arrival gates.. eh and DID i mention that he failed to see us?? haha..goodness. All the 'barang barang'..he brought was like some kinda garang guni man. must say, it's been onelong day today. I've never travelled twice to the East in a day before..transports cost money yea? --broke-- kidding.. x)

lots of things to do now that os are over. Just realised that i've a voice exam to worry about, recording for graduation in 2 days' time, shopping for grad presents for friends, planning of my upcoming chalet and all, going out with all my friends possible??ugh. busy busy busy..what kind of life is this? i wanna enjoy..

now that exams are over, i realised that i really have a lot to think about, since time and books are no longer an issue in my life right now and that, totally sucks. i swear i'd rather be occupied with exams than having to think about things. Sat by the window last night watching the rain fall quietly outside my window with the cold wind blowing in my face at 3am when the world is fast asleep. Been finding it harder and harder to sleep everyday, thoughts go through my head whenever i close my eyes to sleep, and when i finally get to sleep, bad dreams come, the tossing and turning in bed that never seem to end and i wake up in the night finding myself almost in tears. before i know it, LO! and behold. morning has broken.

not supposed to think anymore, not supposed to feel this way. i'm trying, but it's just so hard. wash away everything that pulls me down, i wanna run away right now.. it's like you give so much, but u just hafta let go. i'm happy but sad at the same time. i'll need time, to get --- of my mind. And till then Lord I'll lean on you, that's all i mean to do. Till i can make it on my own.Don't you get it, i still want you around.

don't wanna close my eyes, don't wanna fall asleep cause i miss you babe, and i don't wanna miss you babe. couldn't there be a chance at all? wait, i'm asking for too much. hit me somebody, and hit me hard. i can't help it, i can't control it. ugh..

why am i still hanging around when i know it brings me down i'm hating everything. please don't remind me, put your past behind me, it shines so bright it blinds me i wish that this would end. Am i not fine last night i saw you online ur screen name used to be mine, why can't we just pretend?