HAPPY DEEPAVALI AND HARI RAYA!!!

p.s.i love these festivals, cause i get to eat a lot of those cookies and get green packets!! *greedy me*

Really am glad that the wrong question in the Bio Paper is ommitted from marking.. *phews* or at least it will not affect our marks, or so the tele says so. and it'd better be that way.. have you ever missed something or someone so much? it's kinda insane sometimes you don't even know why or how, but it just happens. bleahx.

I really wonder whether I've done the right thing or not.. i ought to be whacked real hard in the head and wake up if i'm doing everything wrong. Been forced to think a lot... i'm so insecure, but maybe it's right what i've been hearing all this while and yet not listening to that voice in my head. am i wrong??

I've been slacking for the past 1 and a half days, sure feels weird not doing anything. But maybe i can't seem to concentrate on anything.. so it'd just be another of those futile attempts to try to actually study something. Urgh which reminds me that i've to start teaching at my mum's company to those little kids running and yelling around. Needless to say, having to face all those weird and awful parents who always have a 101 questions to ask. double URGH.

The words have been drained from this pencil, Sweet Words that I want to give you.
and I can't sleep, i need to tell you, good night...
When we're together i feel perfect, When i'm pulled away from you i fall apart.
While you say a secret to me, your eyes are so blue, i can't look away as we lay, in the stillness.. you whisper to me..
Baby.. marry me.. promise you'll stay with me.. oh you don't have to ask me... you know you're all that i live for.. you know i'd die just to hold you.. stay with you, somehow i'll show you, that you are my night sky, i've always been right behind you, now i'll always be right beside you..
So many nights i've cried myself to sleep,Then, when you loved me, i loved myself.I never thought i would say that,and i never thought there'd be you.

seems like i've been doing so many wrong things recently.. what's wrong with me.. i hate myself. urgh. it's useless to say anything anyway cause what's done is done. wonder what i've done to deserve this.. maybe i knew it all along, like why people are so shallow and judgemental all the time? no one is bloody perfect and before you can actually criticise and hurt someone so bad inside, maybe you should just keep quiet. unless you want to feel that sting too. don't worry i'm NOT hitting on anyone here, just needed to get some stuff out of me, cause i think if i keep continuing like everything's alright.. my limit's THE limit already. don't cut me any deeper. so this is all i have to say abt the issue.

running and running and running away in the rain..