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cheryl francisca 23 nov 88’ <3 ly, God, family, thesexies, asher my keys, singing yea!

Monday, January 24, 2005, Monday, January 24, 2005

Another week into CJ, had my 1st geog test today, was so tired studying for it last night that i fell asleep on the table whilst doing the paper... It's a good thing i got awoken by Freda or else i would have died before the time was up.

Guess i'm more or less used to saliva man's ways of teaching. Pretty tiring to sit up and listen to him, and the half the time he goes off condenming people, and i have a feeling he hates us Asians or if i'm right, it'll be us SINGAPOREANS that he considers dim-witted and not very intellectually mature. Today's my long dreary day in school, the monday blues.. ya ya whatever you put it out to be.

Had Sop sectionals today, and somehow, something just doesn't seem like how choir in SN used to be. It's not as compelling, not as competitive and it's a whole new environment and people are from literally EVERYWHERE!! still i know i shouldn't be complaining here but i really want to see CJ Choir improve. I don't know, I don't even have the power to say anything much less to even say, DO something at all. It's pathetic this silly state we're all being thrown in, or maybe it's just me feeling the pangs of wanting to sing in a GOLD choir once more. I miss everything. But i'm sure there's more surprises coming our way, i really hope everyone works hard.. this SYF is either we make it, or DIE. :S we'll see as we go along i'm sure..

Didn't make it in for council, it's really sad how they function, just because you have SYF and can't attend meeting and you're just taken off the list to even show them that you can do anything at all? And for pete's sake, we're representing the school. sigh, what to do.. that's the council's rule. And when she speaks, we all have to listen.

Got very bothered today when someone came up to me to tell me something, hit me so hard in the head i'm sure i would have fallen save not for the pillar i was leaning against. I'm telling you, it sucks to be in this place, this arena of life where you constantly get stabbed over and over again in the same area.. and without mercy. I wonder what this all mean? I don't know what else i have to do to prove and show you that i'm not what you think about, it's really shallow-minded for those to make baseless accusations without a tinge of any justification in your statements. I'm sure, if I had wanted to long ago, i would have jolly well done the same back to you and show to you, what contradictory passages you've made. i'm so utterly disappointed. but then again, i don't think you all would even bother to be in the least interested to hear me, cause i know that i'm just some measley idiot hanging around in your lives. So many times i've kept quiet and hid in the dark. but i guess it's time.. i made my stand.