cheryl francisca
23 nov 88’
<3 ly, God, family, thesexies, asher my keys, singing yea!
Thursday, February 24, 2005, Thursday, February 24, 2005
O level results are coming out on Monday.. As much as some people would love to receive it, i'm so sure i'm not going to love it. I can feel it. ugh i hate this stupid nervousness. I hate it. I don't ever want to take it back. And i keep having thoughts and nightmares that i'll not make it to JC. Not like Poly is bad or anything but just.. ya. I WANT to go to a JC. Damn.
Haven't been writing much here i know. sighs.I've just been too damn bloody busy with school. maybe some of you wouldn't believe it but well, we DO have lots to do in CJ you know.. It's not that a SLACKER school as some would term it as. Well, i guess you're all wrong.
Went back to SN to see the choir today and i felt like i haven't been living for the past hundred years or something. I miss them so much. But i guess, maybe it's just part of growing up to be more ancient by the second. yes, pretty much like NOW. I miss choir. I want to be part of choir again. I don't know. Sometimes I don't want to go back to SN or hear other people from the other choirs. I don't want to. somehow it hurts me more..
damn i should be feeling happy, not let these shits get me down. ugh. is choir more important to me than other things being.. ? i don't feel like going on anymore. damn.
do you know how much you mean? i'm sorry.i know i suck, maybe someone is right. i'm only gd at hurting. maybe i really am. damn, why am i so screwed up?