Great boring day it is today, supposed to wake up to attend the earlier mass but i just couldn't pull myself up. it's so amazing to note that such a small body like mine requires a LOT a LOT of energy for it to be fully replenished, in which case, has never been achieved.

everyone just had to have something on today, renny's gone at the temple, sam has her dad's bdae to attend to, so i guess i was alone at voice today. and it felt haha a tad miserable. was trying to call people to see if any of them was free but i guess not afterall.

went down to esplanade library with the hopes of finding the scores that i wanted but darn it was closed. sheesh. but i must say tonight's dinner was reall something to think about.

met my mum's friends from st anthony's church, these 3 brothers who play spanish, mexican music, ballads, everything.. and with the two guitars and one double bass, they created magic. they even collaborated with Tama Goh! they must really be something..
And i still remember being mesmerized that night when they were playing my mum's friend's birthday dinner at the park. they were totally, awesome. And they are now asking me to go back and help the choir (not full time but just help them here and there), and in return they'll give me free guitar lessons. The fact that they're PRO guitarists really makes me gush. i feel so honoured and then again, there's the part where SFX comes in. I really wanna go back, but it just seems seemingly impossible to squeeze out time. But I'm sure i'll make it back soon.. SOON and yes fellas, i really mean it.

somehow the talk with the 3 big guys at the coffeshop really seemed sort of a divine moment. as in God was somehow trying to pull me back to do something for others. plus the fact that one of them kept repeating and emphasizing the phrase,
"Give to me once, and i'll give back double".
And i do admit that I've been kinda drifing away from Him, maybe it's his way of calling me back to Him. Praise to God!.. yea. I'll go knock on his door tonight.

went to see grandpa during lunchtime today and he got really emotionl after seeing me. I miss him, that man who has been the second greatest (after God that is) to me in my life. Feeling kinda guilty for not making it back for dinners over at gramps so that I can see him more often. It's really comforting to know that you've got a grandpa who cares so much for you even though he doesn't speak the words and neither can he move no longer, n sometimes mistakes you for your dad. but despite all this, hell he cares about you. he remembers you and kisses ur hand as his only response when he sees you. I really love my grandpa.. he's like the only man on this planet that i'll ever love so much. not even my Dad or Bro. From the days he took me down to watch him do his Tai Chi, fetched me home from my kindergarten with a bag of marshmallows and a bottle of yakult, his fantastic american breakfast and manually brewed coffee from authentic pure coffee beans, his paper cranes and paper origami of every possible animal you'd eve want, his paper jumping frogs, those board games- esp steeplechase, his smile, his love, and recently my new digi cam. it's just everything he did, and everything that he is himself that made him just the way he is, simply irreplacable. Just hope he gets better with every passing day, really do... please bless him O Lord.

- it's been running like this for the 9th day* * and i know it's not going to get any better. i'm just going to sit here and see how long it'll take or maybe never, before he realises that I'm gone. no, maybe it's we're gone.

and i'm feeling like i've always been before. never worse never better. last day of our 4-day weekend break and i'm staying at home to study. no choice, mid years are coming. and yes, i've got family dinner tmr again. gotta make use of my time or else.. it's the mortuary for me. guess that's all for now girlies and boys, gotta go tuckity tuck in my stuff toys to sleep. *yes i still have stuff toys which give asthma problems. HAHA :D nights you all.

And don't forget that God, loves you all.