wala! what gd luck today. my lit teacher was sick therefore we cancelled our extra tutorial. i'm so glad, lesser lessons and besides I was tired. Should be studying right now but i just wanna sleep and not get up. i'm so tired. :(

saw the kid on the block again, and he had a new hair cut. and that was the only time I got to ever see him today I suppose. It's been a while. Maybe to him, not that long.. but he really seem as though he doesn't care. I miss talking to him, miss seeing his sms(s). but i bet he's never going to sms me or call me up anytime soon.. but i really hope he does. and i guess I'm really right, he's no time for me. Or just never thought about ringing me up. Maybe he's busy.. but i really hope i'm not deluding myself. are u hearing me??? i miss you.

going out laterrs. really happy it's the first time i'm going out since sch holidays started. and i'm just getting used to all the late nights and sleep-ins till the afternoon passes by.. sounds real piggish though. got back my assignments for geog and lit today. ain't very good. sigh i should really be working harder. and haha last night's quiz was terrible. i did so badly, but i wasn't the only one grumbling about it ehs. had lunch with agustin just now in sch, finally understood what things are like on the other side of the grass. really do, but yes i guess i'm on the same side as her now with our other member of our little club.but it's ok i mean.. no one really cares about us anyway. Sometimes i wish things would get back to where they were before 2nd term started but i guess it never will and i'm accepting the fact that i've lost some of the coolest friends i have in school.

heard sn's going down, in terms of standards and all the values and all.. teachers are getting stressed and students are as equally stressed and complaining much. It really makes me wonder whether it's the new VP or the other VP or our Principal or rahter all three heads that are pushing the limits much to the dislike of most people in the big family, wait.. it doesn't even function as one big warm family anymore. where's the tradition that's always been there?? i guess things really have changed after my batch left. I know it sounds like I'm demining those younger ones but hey, it's true isn't it?

i'd rather you tell me you don't have feeling for me anymore, and that we might as well just break up so at least i'll stop feeling this pain. it really sucks to feel as though your other half doesn't care about you while there you go giving all you can in vain. it sucks being in my place. if you really have no time for me, or if other things are more important than me than why do you have me in the first place? i feel like an object that you buy and leave it on the shelf. yes, an ornament. cut me, i bleed. please just tell me if you love me the way i love you too, or else why are you doing this to me? you say i'm thinking way too much but then if i'm wrong, show me, prove me that all i say is not ever going to repeat itself over again. You know i need you more than you know. Am i asking for too much? heaven knows i've been waiting for you.

im not going to think about you anymore..