TO HIM (see below)

life really sucks sometimes. im just getting myself into lotsa shit recently, so screwed up. miss my friends more, my house really is getting very much like a pub, it's so noisey you can hardly live in it. and most importantly, a very important person in my life is going to make the decision of his life to carry on something or let it go totally..

feeling so sucky like everything's wrong, think i've fallen into the wrong phase of life. i hate it. and i haven't started much for mid years. today was really comforting, daniel offered to accompany me, and we went to pasir ris beach to study and listening to choral music on his mp3 with the sun shining in our face as it sets, is really wicked! cool i must say.. a very beautiful sight, and it really makes one feel all relaxed and forget about all ur troubles. thank youu so much daniel! :) really thanks for everything you tried to do in cheering me up. haha and yes maths can make one go all cranky, totally agreed on that one.

[dear]
** you are the one.. regardless of anything, it's all for you. i just miss every hug, every smile, every whisper, every word, every touch, i miss eveything, especially those nights staring out at the stars at our very own secret place. there's so much that we've together, everything we've ever got, can you bear to let it all disappear like this?
and i really i just can't let you go like this, i love you too much. i've never felt this way before, it sounds awfully cliched but really.. i'll do anything for you, just come back baby.

i'm waiting for you..
you know i am..

i know you're ignoring my sms-es cause maybe you aren't sure of where your heart is going and maybe also it's cause you just dun feel like replying me, or maybe your phone's cranky. there are so many reasons.. but baby, i'll never leave you. huggs. please come back to me. im sorry for everything i've done. please..

i really dun know love without you. give us another chance, you're so scaring me. i don't know if you need me around that much anymore, but all i know is that i need you.

is this life??.. you tell me.