it's CHMA 2005 today and yes i didn't go. Because well, for the simple reason that i have, no one to go with. And only last minute did people tell me that they're going.. so it's like.. forget it.

Mid years are finally over since yesterday! and yes Last night was Jubilate 2 2005. It was okayy considering that the emcees screwed it up a bit.. but i was really impressed with all the performing arts esp SO and SNSB and also SNCO. I love dance too and the drama with pam's cousin as the lead actress. Saw a lot of friends ytd guess that was the happiest highlight of the night. Saw all our juniors and all. was really happy to see all of them! :)) hope i'll get to see them soon! It's really been a wild night where we stopped by at Bishan to get drinks afterwhich we had to rush to catch our last buses and last trains. So much for curfews and not having a car to drive around. what luck! boo.

sighs this feeling inside of me is getting worse too.. like i don't know.. i miss him so bad. bah. sighs. being depressed won't ever help either cause nothing's going to bring him back.. i've got this aweful feeling inside. i hate everything. where have i gone wrong? it hurts badd.

will be going out with renny to shop tmr. so excited! shopping spree... yays! :D it's been a while since i spent money on myself. so i guess i'll try to forget abt stuffs. I'll try not to think of you, i'll try not to cry over my pillows at night. i'll try to be ok cause there's nothing i can do. i feel you don't want, don't need me anymore.

sucks staying at home alone while you find out that everyone else is out doing something and having fun, the best times of their lives. sucks when you think, hey where have all my friends gone too? i keep feeling so left out every day. damn. i don't wanna be anything other than what i've been trying to be lately..

they say that prayers work.. have they? maybe they have.