capture those moments

cheryl francisca 23 nov 88’ <3 ly, God, family, thesexies, asher my keys, singing yea!

Monday, January 23, 2006, Monday, January 23, 2006

woke up today, saw the gloomy clouds and i knew that this day was ruined.
didn't feel like moving around, head's spinning, body's aching, i'm suffering from yet a regular dose of fatigue yet again. whats more? renny couldn't go out for long and i didn't wanna end up like a fool gg all the way down to see her for a mere hour or so. i live so far away from civilisation.

can't remember who called who first, all i remember is the sound of your voice over the phone. you said anything again, anything. doesn't matter if i'm with you or not. cause it seems like i don't matter anymore. but still i missed you much, and came down get even to be with you for so short.

moments of grace. haha. do you even know how much seeing you meant? over the past few days, i feel you drifting away from me. feel me tearing up like paper on the sidewalk being stepped over without notice. sometimes has no longer existed, in place of it was now. RIGHT now.. you're far away from me in a world you call urself. and me, i'm here trying to read you, trying so hard, everything just to understand and acomodate you. my patience is wearing, my emotions are going ten feet under. i try to touch you, you don't react.

got off the bus just like that, no gdbye wave or hug or anything. what am i thinking? this didn't happen before. i must have been blind to believe that it wil last. why are you behaving this way? you don't seem to care if it hurts me or not do you? you choose rather not to speak. in my heart you've always been that prayer come true, but now am i wrong to see what's finally in front of me?

ilu so damn much. why are you pulling yourself away from me? you sa you're going to call, you're going to this and that.. i've learnt that whatever you say doesn't count anymore. you say you still love me. show it. don't speak the words that don't matter anymore. whats going on..

waited up till gd ness knows what time. guess you never knew huh.