sigh it's just only been 2 days into the new school year as well as school term and i'm already feeling the ..... drags of it...

yea i'm so tired already. what more, today's Cca Bazaar for all the new J1s so we gotta display our stuffs and do our thing, whatever we do best and try to get as many people to sign up. I know the numbers that choir got today aren't exactly very good, but it's alright i suppose.. :/ for now.

but i was so happy to see familiar faces like my juniors and LI RONG, RONGS!!!! and people I know from nanyang girls' high .. brings back all the memories of our Laudate Voce choir concert man. JOIN CHOIR, oh and once again we need more MALES. pls do come forward wherever you all are. choir's really not like sissy sassy GAY cca anymore. and now that we're going to have Mr Toh onboard, i really pray things will pick up.

Homework's already on its way and i've been asking around, seems like i'm not the only poor soul to suffer but i guess it's so expected of year twos to get this shit so fast. no more playing this yr, yes yes. i know. everyone's saying that. damn, i hate the pressure. :(

And i want to be a facil for the second intake of students, so i gotta study hard this first 3 mths and attain my gd grades. *crosses fingers* and oh sadly, did i mention that my class is the ONLY arts class in the entire science block. while all our arts khakis, esp our dearest 2T02 is in the opposite block. It sucks, we can't be besides them like how we were last year and all the fun we made, the NOISE esp. Now it's just quiet. And not to add on, my class is right at the end, at the extreme corner. how nice. blackouts are very frequent too.

spent sch the past 2 days being rather lonely again, once again the uaul misconception that i have a lot of friends to hang out with is WRONG. totally. like really, i need to desperately find people to go home with, to have lunch or worse still recess with.. why? cause my classmates all have their own cliques and i, don't belong to any. Not that I'm complaining.. it's just sad la. I know they all hate me. sighs* and sometimes i wonder why i even bother to try to be a friend to them all. it hurts a lot. but i guess i'm not going to think or care about it anymore like how i tortured myself last year. i'm going to live this yr right.

spent lessons today concentrating hard and i realise that i really need to go revise all my last yr's work cause the concepts are kinda blurry. kept thinking of you from time to time, what you're doing and where you are. Wondering whether you're doing the same too.

really wish you could give me reassurances every now and then, im still afterall a girl. all those things, words that you used to say, gone. maybe you don't say them anymore cause you know i do know.. but it gets me guessing all the time, why can't we still be as expressive about our feelings still? remember how we used to talk about everything and anything all the time. what happened to them all? i really wanna try and work things out... maybe i'm thinking too much. and i don't want to make you feel like i'm forcing you or pressurizing you or anything, i mean just think about it. sighs, baby you mean so much to me.

i'm ever so thankful for every day tht comes by and you're still here with me. really.

come, thursday! i'm ready to take you on..