I think i'm so fried I can never be more fried than this. Haven't studied for common tests for all my papers, been so bloody distracted of late but too many things running through my mind at every single waking moment till i fall asleep.

didn't really eat much, no appetite at all. i can't do anything right. really i'm no shitting lying abt this. and i hate being this vulgar. i apologise to those who might read this and get irritated at me later on.

sometimes i think i've hit the breaking point then i regress and fall back and tell myself that hey, i still can't go on. so hold on tight. it's never going to be this easy i know right from the start. i don't know about you but maybe you're probably never going to give this a chance at all. you know i can't let you go just like that. you know i can't. yet... it really seems as though you're not caring at all. why am i even complaining? it's my a level yr and maybe since you've been too caught with your life to bother about me, then i shall stop bothering you till you finally decide what you wanna do with this. hopefully you come back. but i don't think you'd want me anymore. i'm just not good enough for you.

but then ash wednesday mass really made up quite a bit of my day i guess.

i feel so sad when i see your mum. i miss your family. and most importantly you. don't you even feel it? sigh]] you don't want me anymore.

kill me while i still believe that you were meant for me.