there's nothing to cushion that fall. nothing to hide away my careless sighs.
all those longer goodbyes that grace my lips every now and then.
i know i'd fall in your eyes.

again.

but then just last night it was clear that im not needed anywhere. and the weight of the falling presses on, forces you even more to give up.... the water gets higher, and you long to hide deeper beneath its surface. oh how i wish that even beneath the water the music will play and i'll not hear you. i just want you to know that i'm walking away now.. you wanted it anyway so i hope you're happy now.
delusion fills my heart, fills my mind.
and now i know that this is the end. your taste still lingers on my lips. but i know i must go on.

theres a someone by the block walkin by without a smile, so quietly yet exuding an air of calmless. but i don't think i can reach you. it's hard to believe this isn't really true, is it not? i really wanna know what this is all about. im scared of the consequences. im aafraid of losing you, afraid of losing it. i just want you to know i'm trying. i am.
and what if in the end i chose you.. what will you say?
should i go? should i beg?.. it hurts me so much.

anw, tues tmr.. hopefully im gg back to dance for sn cheer. BLUE HOUSE ROCKS! however my dear phone requires help cause the stupid memory card is supposedly corrupted now that i cant use it. so yea gotta send down for servicin soon. every day is moving by so quickly.
it's so unreal. ***------------