bought my first designer dress today! i so love it. thanks hui hui!! :) i never knew far east could be so fun, especially with you!!! yays.

i keep thinking,
i keep wanting,
i keep dreaming
that this is not real.
every thought of you pricks of my heart, the sound of your voice haunts me, the smile on your face reminds me of everything we had, the way you sang, when i was your everything.
tonight it's clamping down on me and the deeper i fall.
i so sorry i can't let you go.

i don't want ____ anymore.

somehow these few weeks i've been so emo, and i still am. it's sad thinking about all my friends back in sn and how drifted we are from each other cause we're all separated into different colleges. i know i shouldn't be feeling like watery shit at nights but damn you know it's hard. i just realised how stuck back into the past i am. the worst part is having to face them every day of your life even in college. yes we're all in the same school. i don't know why i'm still breathing the way i am. pls pls pls shoot me.

and i hated the bloody, really BLOODY abortion video. im still having horros about it now. pray i'll be able to slp.

another long day tmr. i don't want to go on.. my overdue homework, my lies, my distractedness. my future's so hopeless. dude, this has got to go now. NOW.
and meanwhile i'll go meet my bed.