WOW O WOW.
dear old school is coming back to haunt me again. can't imagine how much i've lost touch with the daily buzz of sch, like how my timetable goes, what week is it tmr (no, seriously is it the odd week or even week- for the sake of my timetables), whats going to happen tomorrow( not that many people would know either but wells..), it's like i've forgotten everything about sch during june holidays. and this is it. the cold hard truth. A levels are in about 3 months. PRELIMS are worse. I hate Singapore's education system, we're like trying to run this impossible race. Poor us get temporary nervous breakdowns since primary for every 2 years after, the streaming, the PSLE, the streaming again, the O LEVELs and now wow!!! please surprise me. ---> A LEVELS. yay. (not)

shit. i just remembered. remind me not, i pray hard that i'll not get my mid year results back tomorrow. oh shit. x_x i'm dead. i really am.

sigh sigh sigh. today was probably the last time i can have a taste of what freedom is. not that i get locked up by my parents or grounded (i'm so thankful for that), it's just.. i don't think I'll have time for anything else when tomorrow starts full blast. I'm so so thankful for rollerblading at east coast today, all the times i've fallen down laughing, watching the sea and birds and people fishing away at Bedok Jetty, the stupid photographs we took there, our aching backs and butts and whatevernots, and the pretty sunset above the waters that reflected its ray.. man. i'll miss those times.
and of course, all those other special times with dustbin.

oh crap. i am excited to meet my friends but i hate going back to school. drats. i just hate everything. and its not the monday blues or for this matter, the tues' blues i'll be getting.. it's really, far from everything as simple as that.

today was really one terribly high strung day for me, emotions running wild the room, trying hard to curb this appetite for depression. even my favourite eating pastime has been slightly under the weather these days. ack. i just hope it'll pass. please do. said a many things that hurt someone and i'm so sorry but i'm just so afraid of losing everything. I'm really sorry and I just wanna say thank you for choosing what you chose, I'm sure not many people can do what you did.

school here i come :(